Everywhere He’d Been
Monday’s foreshadowing
came through.
After your nap,
you and Coal came over
and the Salt Cannon
finally got its first assignment.
Steak.
Obviously steak.
Questionably seasoned steak,
because I tried
not to overdo it,
but cannons
will be cannony.
I think I did okay.
You ate every bite.
With a little help
from Coal,
who understands
quality control
as a lifestyle.
There was also
a giant potato,
because apparently
we were feeding a frontier family,
and not two adults watching soccer.
France and Senegal
gave us the first shape of the night.
Then Messi
walked into the plot
like he had heard me
talking mess from Buckhead.
Before the match,
I joked
maybe I’d get
to see some Messi tears.
Cute.
Adorable.
Naive little man.
I had no idea
what kind of machinery
I had just touched.
The reverse curse
kicked in…
with both boots.
Hat trick.
Record tied.
History happening
right there in the room,
while I sat there responsible
for all of it, apparently.
You’re welcome,
Messi.
Thank you very little.
And you,
of course,
were excited
to see the history.
Because you do not
carry the appropriate
Messi loathing
in your heart,
which is a flaw
I am willing to keep studying…
under controlled conditions.
Still,
your joy
kept a light
on in the room.
So fine.
Let the man
have his goals.
Let history
do the irritating thing
where it shows up
wearing the wrong jersey
and still looks good in the photograph.
After the adequate steak
and the giant potato,
we settled into
that strange late-night limbo
between games,
between energy,
between "good idea"
and "let’s not lie to ourselves."
The late match
was supposed to start at eleven.
Then midnight.
Midnight.
Absolutely not.
We gave it
about twenty-five minutes
because we are brave,
committed,
deeply unreasonable people
who also know when the couch is winning.
So you packed up
Coal’s newly cleaned blanket.
Grabbed the car.
I took Coal and Orca
for the last little walk.
Then met you
at the curb
for one of those exits
so clean
it should have its own choreography.
No snag.
No fuss.
Just you,
Coal,
blanket,
car,
curb,
goodbye.
Flawless.
Then the door closed.
Then the car left.
Then Orca made a sound
I had never heard from her before.
Not a bark.
Not a whine.
Not puppy complaint
number forty-seven.
A cry.
A real one.
Like some part of her
had just noticed
that Coal was gone
and could not understand
why the house still smelled
like he should be there.
In the middle
of one ordinary Tuesday night,
Coal had become her biggest hero.
Nobody told me.
Nobody told her,
either.
It just happened.
Somewhere between
patio dogs,
couch dogs,
steak assistance,
blanket logistics,
and old-lab calm,
Orca had decided:
that one.
That one matters.
And then he left.
She didn’t stop
for nearly an hour.
Made me circle
the parking lot twice.
Nose down.
Hope up.
Looking.
Then inside.
Everywhere he’d been.
The spot by the couch.
The place near the door.
The path through the room.
The invisible map
only a dog could still read.
She’d plop down
for a minute,
like maybe grief
could be negotiated
from that angle,
then pop back up
and try the next place.
Unexpected.
Sweet.
Sad.
All at once.
Which,
come to think of it,
is a pretty accurate description
of most things worth keeping.
Tuesday was tremendous.
Questionable steak.
Historic nuisance Messi.
Late-game surrender.
Flawless exit.
One broken-hearted puppy
searching the house for her hero.
And us,
still weaving the thread
at breakneck speed.
Today, maybe I get a Braves-night sighting.
Maybe not.
Either way,
Tuesday left enough
to keep finding
everywhere it had been.
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